What I supposed to say anymore.

Assalammualaikum and Hi:)

So, today, is the most worst day for me ever after-

It is three and fourty am in the morning and Im still not in sleep mood. I dont know what's in my mind for now. It feels like, im holding a rock, and i want to throw this rock hardly to my head. How I wish i can do it but, i cant. If I can ask this questions that keeps playing on my brain, personally to each people who is breathing in this world how great that feels are but, i cant. I lost my mind to think about that thing. Yes! After think it, cry for nothing to it, I plan to losing myself in this world someday so, there's no people can find me anymore. I already think to change my phone number, to moved from a places I used to live. I want to run off from all these kinda thing. I plan to do so but i cant. So, I made a decision, a very deep think. I'll take a slow steps to do all those thing. What goes around comes around. People comes people go. Okay, I get that:) I will make my life better than before without looking back, I will stop this silly attitude and being someone until there's no one cant recognize me anymore. Im going to do it, with my slow steps. Im going to do it true. I will, InsyaAllah. Kbye.